cross : not me
bold : so me! XD

i was born in September :D

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

trying to figure out this life.❤21:32

im in BAD MOOD right now. =/
and planning to shut up. there's many problems that make me confused for a few days.
gosh, why im so unlucky? im always meet horrible man in my life. ==;;
is there someone better for me? i already tired with this, with broken heart, with the sycophant around me, in fact their always talk about me, not a true but a LIE. i also confused with unrequited love,with my DADDY == and also with SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL! ==;;

yeah yesterday i fought with my dad, honestly, i really hate with his 'wise' and 'act affected' syndrome *sorry dad* =3= yesterday he said that i always cant do something well. please, is there perfect ppl in this world? believe me 100%, THERE IS NO PERFECT PPL IN THIS WORLD. -- and he also said i cant study in SMAK 1. i dont know why he says like that, but his words makes me angry, ==
but i must remember, even i hate him *sometimes, not always* he is my dad, and i love you. :)

and lets go back to the main problems
now i already buy registration form of SMAK 1 BPK PENABUR, i dont sure i can survive in this school. one side of myself says if i study in SMAK1, my parents would be proud with me, but, another side of myself says i cant survive T________________T
my god~ what should i do ? i really confused ==

trying to figure out this life.❤20:06

hey everyone X3
i am get bored so i made this wallpaper, with new style XD wahhahaha
and this wallpaper dedicated to Sayuri unnie that loves jaejoong as vampire so much♥
but im sorry onnie
jaejoong is not too similiar with the vampire here ;_;
enjoy unnie ^3^



real size : http://i228.photobucket.com/albums/ee223/170606/vampireprincebysyaa.jpg

hope you like it onnie ^^

trying to figure out this life.❤23:22

im totally MISS him so much :P
hope i can see him again. ASAP
and i think this song can represents my feel :)

***

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

So why am I still here in the rain

-kiss the rain

trying to figure out this life.❤01:23